@MBLAQCD

Even if my heart dies , dance never will .

I'm missing this dude here too much .

I've been tweeting him , @MBLAQCD .

I hope he knows my existance , I'm sure he does .

Well , I've met this awesome dude and we did TALK !

Awesome right ?

We even TOUCHED .

Hahahaa as in handshake uh OMG .

I'm still awake , wide awake y'know .

But my body is tired ,

so I promise a proper post tomorrow alright ?

Going mega flea with deardear and julia !

It's gonna be FUN FUN FUN FUN ! ^^

Alright nights folks .

My heart goes to ;

Yes I miss all this people here .

Aren't they just too awesomeeee ?

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SHINee Jap Album ;

Okay omg yes , I am regretting not getting this album now ! FML .

Breaking dawn ;

Don't worry about falling in love because in fairy tales, they don't find each other until the last page.

Greetings folks , it's currently 2.11am and I'm pretty much awake .

Please do not ask me why are all this amazing little words underlined cos I preetty much don't know what my naughty fingers were pressing all around the keyboard .

I love my family , yes my immediate family the most of course .

I love mummy , she said she'll sponsor me two pairs of Vans . Awesome much .

I don't really know which Vans to get though , never thought one day they'd be mine .

The first time I saw I wanted pink , but deardear wants pink , but she said it's okay and asked to to just go along with my favourite pink , so what should I do , frustrated .

And after these two pairs of Vans , I'll pretty much wait till either my birthday or after O's to get a pair of dancing shoes for myself .

Saw a few nice dancing shoes from Nike , DC and so on uh .

I think I'm turning VERY pinkish and I really mean VERY PINKISH .

Milky pink fingernails , hot pink toenails , hot pink schoolbag , a lot of loud pink tops and dresses , intends to have hot pink extension after O's , probably getting hot pink Vans , most probably a hot pink dancing shoes , crave for all sorts of hot pink stuffs .

Nevertheless , I should pretty much buck up and study my ass off for my prelims and O's cos I want to get into a JC badly , somehow .

I need a degree to be a air stewardess , and I need to pass through university .

I mean I'll work towards my dream , yay .

I'll probably go find some part-time work at the airport after O's .

Oh and not forgetting joining "O SCHOOL" after O's .

Fyi , it's a dance school and scape and I want to learn Street Jazz .

Gonna be joining dance as CCAs when I get into JC or so on .

Got to go to bed alreadddy , /yawns .

PS/ I MISS HASHBROWN , as usual .

PS// MONTE CARLO , cos I LOVE Leighton Meester A LOT !

BABYJJONG ;

Hey sup dudes , it's been a week since I last posted . MISS ME HUH ! /winks . Did I mention that holiday is indeed boring huh , nothing to do at all , actually there is hell lot of homeworks , but I'm slacking at home like nobody's business I swear . Watching all Mblaq's varieties , even re-watching some of them . Been slacking my ass off and I should really get my ass off this bloody house and go STUDY ! Alright , I did study yesterday okay ! Studied alone at Novena from 12nn till deardear came at around 3.30pm . Ate popeyes , then went TTSH's Starbucks to continue studying ! I was totally feeling like a NERD , and that's what I'm gonna feel again tomorrow . This time going to Ngee Ann Poly to study , hell yeah ! I AM NERDYGIRL95 !

I REALLY REALLY MISS KIMJONGHYUN , MY BABY AWW ! I MISS SHINEEE !

PS/ I MISS HASHBROWN .

PS// I MISS KIMJONGHYUN .

PS/// I MISS PARK SANGHYUN .

Chaos ;

I live to dance , in all emotions .

As precious your baby is to you is as precious dance is to me . I'd love to thank every single one of you whom had helped me or even guided me to this path . Yes , I used to be only a sporty girl and stuffs but come to think of it , dancing is sporty as well isn't it . You can dance hardcore like street dance , hip hop , and even girly and sexy ones like ballet and sexy jazz . To me , dance is everything . Like I said , people said I couldn't make it , I don't dance well and so on , but confidence is key and I think I have it . Gonna get myself my very first pair of dancing shoes in a months' time and I'm so looking forward to having that dancing shoes mine ! I'll be meeting Jinyin tomorrow to get our dancing pants , and we're gonna dance together along with Crystal and Cindy on Saturday to prepare ourselves for the upcoming dance battle . I'm pretty sure we can do this so yeah girls , let's give it our best shot .

PS/ I really miss Hashbrown !

Confessions ;

Hey sup dudes , today was a rather boring day for me . School sucked as usual , exams screwed as usual , slacking like no tomorrow as usual . Honestly speaking , I really hate it when there is nowhere to go and everybody just slack in the canteen or something . Alright , deardear came my house then we went to ate POPEYES . People fly aeroplanes as usual , they fly machiam one pro , machiam one professional pilot . Omg and do you know how much I love Popeyes , VERY MUCH . Okay , met Samuel and Novena and so on , and guess what , deardear was acting shy , so not like her . Went eat dinner with him cos tutor cancelled our tuition , but I didn't eat though . Walked around town then headed home , and I slept from 7plus till 10plus , zai only .

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CONFESSIONS:

BGIRLS , OMG I LOVE THEM LIKE NO TOMORROW ! They're the most awesome people to hang out with and they're really too fun to be with , love these girls .

MY DEAREST DEARDEAR ! I really love her like yes I'll only say this once to make you happy , and she is one of the most important person in my lifeee ! We heart to heart like almost every day and she is one whom I can really tell everything and anything under the sky .

MY SUPER CLOSE FRIEND , HELL YEAH . I love this woman but she love me more y'know . It's always retarded with her around and it's really more retarded than whatever you can imagine ! Totally glad to have someone like her in lifeee .

OMG I LOVE HER AND HER DIMPLES ! She is such an awesome friend and it's always fun with her around . We can get really retarded at times , and now she is always OWNED BY ME YAY ! We're from the same gang cos we had similar tattoos , we're ah benggg !

OH EX-LAOPO ! I love this woman like a lot too , she is really an awesome friend but too bad , she's too kind and stuffs . She trust like almost everybody , and everybody is important to her . She's always bullied and made used of , so sad righht , but I still love her .

OH AND I LOVE MY TATTOO ! MY 'ROSYHEART' GANG ! So gay omg , but I love it ! Aww , my tattoo is going to fade off soon , omg noooo .

Adam Khoo Workshop ;

I love Adam Khoo's Workshop like omg seriously . I especially love Gary Lee ! Omg he is serious and hilarious , I love it when he smiles . Omg he is actually quite cute y'know but he is married . I learnt a lot of things throughout these 3 days of 39hours workshop . This is the BEST workshop ever , no wonder we've to pay so much luh . I really hoped it was some sort of 3 days camp instead but unfortunately nopee . I know I won't be seeing these instructors again , but still I'm really grateful for whatever they had taught us , I've learnt to appreciate others more , especially my loved ones . I got pretty emotional yesterday and today , cried like nobody's business and I thank Wanxin , Yingjie , Julia and Rene for being there . 5 of us had been hanging out together these 3 days and they're really awesome people . I love laughing at others together with the 4 of them and we can go really crazeeey ! As for my closest friend , I missed her a lot seriously . Well we haven't been spending time with each other lately and it felt a little weird y'know . Yes this person is none other than my deardear , leeqiantingberlin . You know I really love you alrighht . Aww man now I'm missing my instructors , gerald , bong , trina and especially gary ! I'll try to put my time into good use and study hard for O's , make you guys be proud of actually guiding me to the correct path and make my mum proud of me .

PS/ I miss Gary .

PS// I miss ......boy .

PS/// I miss deardear , I love you .

PS//// I love you mummy .

PS///// I love you daddy , hope you can see this in heaven .

Gorgeous ;

OMG HOW PRETTY CAN LEIGHTON MEESTER GET . She is just so perfect , gorgeous baby . And of course Ed Westwick too , he is so charming . Omg , I just love Gossip Girls . Never forget Chace Crawford as well . Ah omg . Okay well well , got totally pissed of by my parents and seriously I doubt it'll end in a good way , but I'll definitely fight for my rights dude . Alrighht . Tomorrow is Chinese Olevels and I wonder what I'm actually doing here . No mood to study uh , no motivation . Like yeah oh , I'm actually very bored at home and I hate home . It's for animals not for me alrighht . Ah whatever , judge all you want cos I don't bother . Oh omg , he went m'sia so none is texting me , even my "good friends" huh . Ah fine whatever , pms pms . Bye .

I need somebody to love ;

I need somebody to love ;

Hey sup dudes , it's currently 1.15am and I'm still like wide awake for I don't know why . Can't seem to sleep and yeah omg , I love my toenails cos it's hot pink . Omg now I'm actually staring at them , so pretty aww . I went out to study in town today . Welll studied alone for about 2 and a half hours then deardear came . Ate pastamania and walked around and guess what , I saw this freaking nice Nike dance shoes at Limited Edition but it's freaaking 169bucks . I shall save up , or probably beg mummy to get it for me but I doubt she will . She would probably think it's a waste of money or something like that aye . I swear I'm gonna join O School after my O's , hopefully with deardear or anyone yay . I want to take Street Jazz , it's like totally my style y'know . Then I'll be able to go Scape as frequent as possible like yeah if you know what I mean . My aim is to own a pair of dancing shoes and a few dancing pants . I seriously like how the dancers dress themselves . Gonna stay at home tomorrow to chiong Chinese like seriously cos y'know what , it's Olevels on Monday ! I guess I'll totally be freaaking out but everyone is gonna ask me to calm down like yeah oh . I really hope I do well , pass with an A1/A2 and I'll not retake . Oh did I mention that I actually knew this tuition guy and yes , he is a pretty awesome dude . I doubt you'll see this but if you do , be honoured . He is like a really nice guy so far , and hope it'll continue . But he likes to make fun of me you see , and always acts blur like yaah okaay . I love his brother though , he is like somekind of cool hyperactive kid . Gonna be talking to him on the phone so byeee dudes .

Rants,

Hello sup people , it's been 10days since I last blogged so sorry . ): Well , I guess today was a bad and good day . But the good thing was that a good thing happened after the bad thing , if you know what I'm talking about . Pretty much about all this friendship stuffs here and there , I think I'm the only one getting too emotional , thinking that it'll be the way I thought it would be but apparently not . Pretty much thanks to this freaking awesome woman that appeared in our life out of nowhere last year . Yes , I'm going to rant all here so if you don't like it then shoo , I don't really bother anymore . Oh well well , tolerated with all these shiets for months , and whatever you would say if you tolerated me for how many years I don't care . And there are more people out there who doesn't like you if you're not aware of that . Stop trying to act one close with them alright . I don't care about how many guys you want , how many friends you'd like to take away from me . I can't count them with my fingers . Oh yes , I definitely do backstab people . Tell me which girl in the right mind wouldn't ? I bet you backstab too , and you don't have to deny it as well . Gossip is definitely one of the most common things about girls , and I seriously enjoy it if it's about you cos I've so many things to say . Well sometimes I just can't control myself . Things are getting out of hand now and yes , you're taken my friends away from me one by one . Next time just text me whoever you want next , save all your troubles as well as mine . Fyi , I seriously hate seeing or hearing all your lovey dovey stuffs alright , so do it far away from me . Tyvm . What a 'NICE' day in school , bitch . Ohoh then I started to be happy and yay , THANKS WANXIN ! I LOVE YOU WOMAN ! AND OMG I SAW YOU-KNOW-WHO TODAY ! :) Went Chambers to watch Easy A with Wanxin , Rene , Yingjie , Berlin and her . Ate Best fries forever and oops , I'm supposed to be on diet . ): Went BC with Wanxin and met the other girls . I LOVE THESE 5 AWESOME GIRLS IN BC ! Tenyee , Jiayi , Jeslyn , Yuyu and Jane ! Oh and I'm very sorry I can't make it next week . ): Week 4 alright girls .

PS/ I like him .

PS// I like him too .

PS/// I LOVE CHANGWANXIN !

Mindfucked ;

Some memories are not meant to be remembered .

Oh right , it was such a pleasant day till mum came home , told me about that freaking tutor shieeet ! Omg how was I supposed to know I have tuition today when you previously said that you'll text me when I've got tuition . I can't read your mind right like dude , and I freaking have my own handphone , you don't have to get through my mum to tell me stuffs alright , You said I'm rude , fine now I'll show you what is rude . My last year with you and I'll be free from the arsehole shiet , well to be exact , half a year only okay ! Ah pissed , what a way to end my day . Alright calm , had chinese papers today and omg paper 2 was so hard and all I was writing are craps . Damned , some kind of chinese paper huh ONG H G . Then whatever , damn some other pissing issues like you-should-know . Well this can't be considered a pleasant day if there are so many mindfucked issues . Alright whatever , but things still can be as fun if I chuck all these arseholes aside . Like how the trio (yingjie, wanxin and me) fed almost everyone our BABY FOOD . Well , it's like some mashed up shieet . Oh damned , thinking of it , I feel like vomiting now ! Then it was like everything was fine , took photos here and there , oh and the best was the 1-2-3-4-5-shots ! Then whatever , got pangseh-ed and stuffs but luckily I've still got my dear YINGJIE with me aww . Saw the you-know-what and made her freaking higggh . Then collected her stuff and yeah , waited for lionel and douglas . They took so long and YJ had to leave for tuition . ): Ate with the two of them , well I didn't eat a shieet . Then went home and stuffs . Omg fine yeah , I didn't really study today oh what the hell was I doing ! I NEED MOTIVATION AH DUDE !

PS/ to you-know-who , I really don't like how idiotic you can portray yourself . I guess you need a big mirror somehow .

PS// to tutor , I think you're getting senile , remember to do what you're supposed to do first .

PS/// to yingjie , I love you , well I mean it .

PS//// to you-know-who , I like you .

Dance ;

"Technical perfection is insufficient. It is an orphan without the true soul of a dancer." -Sylvie Guillium

Oh well , people said I don't look like a dancer , my dancing ain't good and stuffs . It used to affect me a lot , as a dancer , every move is elegance , it's the power to conquer , but seems like I lack of all of these . However , it seems like I've just what it takes . Confidence is the key , and I lack of this . Now I've found it back , believing in myself , the elegance I bring out , the power to conquer the stage , this is just what it is to be a dancer , the true soul of a dancer . I don't exactly bother about how you look at me , judging me with my dance and let me ask you a simple question , do you know what is dance ? I may not be the best dancer , but that isn't a point for you to judge . I merely portray the beauty in me , the side that nobody knew , the side of a dancer you all thought couldn't make it . I won't say a thing , but I'll persevere and dance till you shut up .

GE.SG ;

Picture perfect memories , scattered all around the floor .

Well maybe I've got nothing more to say . It's like how you don't need me now , I don't need you as well . I won't rely on someone that I can't trust . Hmph well , stayed up late for the elections results last night . Had lots of mixed feelings and yeah . I'm pretty disappointed that Nicole Seah lost but it's understandable as her 'opponent' is GCT . Next is that WP won Aljunied , I'm so happy for them , but sadly we've lost Geroge Yeo , he was just a great Minister ! Well and anyway , I'm not saying that PAP isn't good , but like Nicole said " there should be more check and balances in the Parliament " . Well , the General Elections are now over . I'm feeling so moody , well maybe when mummy's back I'll cheer up as it's mother's day ! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY ! In addition , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOEY ! Omg my bestie since primary 1 and I really love her !

Boy bestfriend ;

'I want a boy best friend who will call me beautiful, and like my photos on facebook, commenting them saying things such as the fact he’s proud to have me as a bestfriend. One that I can call up, crying about other boys, and him saying he’ll beat the shit out of them for me. A boy bestfriend who will drive me around like he’s my big brother, and kiss me on my cheek/forehead when he knows I’m upset. One who becomes friends with my boyfriend and one who calls me up to see what I’m doing. I want a boy best friend who will tell me when I’m wrong, and force me into fixing things and apologizing because he knows that it will make things better for me. I just want a perfect boy best friend, who will love me and protect me from all the other boys.'

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Oh well , I don't know how things are going . It's just not within my control I guess , it just feels a little weird and yeah . I think all I can do is just wait , maybe something might happen . I'm feeling just so tired , so tired of doing anything , so tired of thinking , so tired of being alone .

NERDS ;

Aww I love deardear (NOT) .

Gonna meet this tiny girl later to study . We really do study and whatever , don't judge us . We're gonna be a little nerdy till after O's , no choice okaaay ! Sister and her boyfriend is at home , and so I've got to leave sooon . Should be going to eat prata tomorrow with Rafael and Crystal , but it isn't confirm yeet . Omg I want prataa ! Thanks Alieeen !

Being a bitch ;

Well today was a pleasant day and I'm trying perfectly hard to mend my own heart after crushing it by myself . I'm like such a bitch , born to be one so there is pretty much nothing I can do about it . Yes , I pms like funfair . But like seriously , how can I girl control her pms . It's pms for god's sake . I'm getting very sensitive to stuffs , well words , recently and I don't know what's got into me . I'm like feeling pissed at almost every single thing , and also high at almost every single thing . Guess what , I forgot to bring my BC file today . What a great job woman . I think zxm is gonna think that I'm a good girl now , I'm starting to do my work in chinese class okay . Well , I don't want to retake Chinese O's , must well just go for it ! All the best to yourself bitch . Oh yeah , screwed chinese oral yesterday like omg yes . She asked me 'how to prevent food poisoning' and I replied with 'I've never had food poisoning so I don't know' . Oh well done bitch , I'm pretty sure you'll fail shieet . Oh damned , just realised I haven't complete my biology homework . Holy cow , I'm so gonna die tomorrow . Screwed . I don't care , I'm a little tired and I'm gonna go to bed like real soon so yeah . Oh and the photo above , heeh , it's my twitter photo but thought I'd change it for facebook instead , should I or should I not ?

JAY EMM ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOJIEMEI !

Blessed sixteeeen , hope you had a great and awesome daay . Still remember how we actually 'celebrated' our Valentines when we were like secondary 2 . Hahahaa , I didn't quite know you till then . Omg yay , thank god I actually have an awesome friend like you . Work hard , play hard . I'm sure you'll do well in your O's this year . I want to go to your housewarming party yay . Omg , go out soon kay . I love you HJM ! Well wishes .

You know you love me ,

XOXO

Oh hell Monday ;

Okaaay , I'm like freaking bored today . What a Monday , hate Mondays like forever . Can't stop looking at the photos , oh hell yeah so niceee ! Want to have more parties soon but it seems impossible , olevels are coming .. Currently talking on the phone with kirby and yeah , he is being freaking lameeee . Ah okay byeee .

Becky's

Oh yeah , one of the best day of this yeaaar ;

REBECCA'S PARTY !

Aww the pink bitches at the party .

HJM & TB .

Preetty birthday girl .

The awesome Bungee-5 !

Bitch accents bitches .

The best ever ; VOLLEYBALL GIRLS !

They party was really awesome and we all had a great day yesterday . Oh hell yeaah , can't wait for becky's 18th birthday party noww ! Omg , I love how everything was pink . I actually hoped that this was some formal thing , then I'll be able to wear my pretty dress and heels . Oh and I sat on the Bungee with the other 4 btiches , it was real awesome dude . I'm being a bitch and lazy to post more photos here so you can proceed on to facebook for a hell lot more photos . Love all of you crazy bitches . Xoxo .