Gorgeous ;

OMG HOW PRETTY CAN LEIGHTON MEESTER GET . She is just so perfect , gorgeous baby . And of course Ed Westwick too , he is so charming . Omg , I just love Gossip Girls . Never forget Chace Crawford as well . Ah omg . Okay well well , got totally pissed of by my parents and seriously I doubt it'll end in a good way , but I'll definitely fight for my rights dude . Alrighht . Tomorrow is Chinese Olevels and I wonder what I'm actually doing here . No mood to study uh , no motivation . Like yeah oh , I'm actually very bored at home and I hate home . It's for animals not for me alrighht . Ah whatever , judge all you want cos I don't bother . Oh omg , he went m'sia so none is texting me , even my "good friends" huh . Ah fine whatever , pms pms . Bye .

I need somebody to love ;

I need somebody to love ;

Hey sup dudes , it's currently 1.15am and I'm still like wide awake for I don't know why . Can't seem to sleep and yeah omg , I love my toenails cos it's hot pink . Omg now I'm actually staring at them , so pretty aww . I went out to study in town today . Welll studied alone for about 2 and a half hours then deardear came . Ate pastamania and walked around and guess what , I saw this freaking nice Nike dance shoes at Limited Edition but it's freaaking 169bucks . I shall save up , or probably beg mummy to get it for me but I doubt she will . She would probably think it's a waste of money or something like that aye . I swear I'm gonna join O School after my O's , hopefully with deardear or anyone yay . I want to take Street Jazz , it's like totally my style y'know . Then I'll be able to go Scape as frequent as possible like yeah if you know what I mean . My aim is to own a pair of dancing shoes and a few dancing pants . I seriously like how the dancers dress themselves . Gonna stay at home tomorrow to chiong Chinese like seriously cos y'know what , it's Olevels on Monday ! I guess I'll totally be freaaking out but everyone is gonna ask me to calm down like yeah oh . I really hope I do well , pass with an A1/A2 and I'll not retake . Oh did I mention that I actually knew this tuition guy and yes , he is a pretty awesome dude . I doubt you'll see this but if you do , be honoured . He is like a really nice guy so far , and hope it'll continue . But he likes to make fun of me you see , and always acts blur like yaah okaay . I love his brother though , he is like somekind of cool hyperactive kid . Gonna be talking to him on the phone so byeee dudes .

Rants,

Hello sup people , it's been 10days since I last blogged so sorry . ): Well , I guess today was a bad and good day . But the good thing was that a good thing happened after the bad thing , if you know what I'm talking about . Pretty much about all this friendship stuffs here and there , I think I'm the only one getting too emotional , thinking that it'll be the way I thought it would be but apparently not . Pretty much thanks to this freaking awesome woman that appeared in our life out of nowhere last year . Yes , I'm going to rant all here so if you don't like it then shoo , I don't really bother anymore . Oh well well , tolerated with all these shiets for months , and whatever you would say if you tolerated me for how many years I don't care . And there are more people out there who doesn't like you if you're not aware of that . Stop trying to act one close with them alright . I don't care about how many guys you want , how many friends you'd like to take away from me . I can't count them with my fingers . Oh yes , I definitely do backstab people . Tell me which girl in the right mind wouldn't ? I bet you backstab too , and you don't have to deny it as well . Gossip is definitely one of the most common things about girls , and I seriously enjoy it if it's about you cos I've so many things to say . Well sometimes I just can't control myself . Things are getting out of hand now and yes , you're taken my friends away from me one by one . Next time just text me whoever you want next , save all your troubles as well as mine . Fyi , I seriously hate seeing or hearing all your lovey dovey stuffs alright , so do it far away from me . Tyvm . What a 'NICE' day in school , bitch . Ohoh then I started to be happy and yay , THANKS WANXIN ! I LOVE YOU WOMAN ! AND OMG I SAW YOU-KNOW-WHO TODAY ! :) Went Chambers to watch Easy A with Wanxin , Rene , Yingjie , Berlin and her . Ate Best fries forever and oops , I'm supposed to be on diet . ): Went BC with Wanxin and met the other girls . I LOVE THESE 5 AWESOME GIRLS IN BC ! Tenyee , Jiayi , Jeslyn , Yuyu and Jane ! Oh and I'm very sorry I can't make it next week . ): Week 4 alright girls .

PS/ I like him .

PS// I like him too .

PS/// I LOVE CHANGWANXIN !

Mindfucked ;

Some memories are not meant to be remembered .

Oh right , it was such a pleasant day till mum came home , told me about that freaking tutor shieeet ! Omg how was I supposed to know I have tuition today when you previously said that you'll text me when I've got tuition . I can't read your mind right like dude , and I freaking have my own handphone , you don't have to get through my mum to tell me stuffs alright , You said I'm rude , fine now I'll show you what is rude . My last year with you and I'll be free from the arsehole shiet , well to be exact , half a year only okay ! Ah pissed , what a way to end my day . Alright calm , had chinese papers today and omg paper 2 was so hard and all I was writing are craps . Damned , some kind of chinese paper huh ONG H G . Then whatever , damn some other pissing issues like you-should-know . Well this can't be considered a pleasant day if there are so many mindfucked issues . Alright whatever , but things still can be as fun if I chuck all these arseholes aside . Like how the trio (yingjie, wanxin and me) fed almost everyone our BABY FOOD . Well , it's like some mashed up shieet . Oh damned , thinking of it , I feel like vomiting now ! Then it was like everything was fine , took photos here and there , oh and the best was the 1-2-3-4-5-shots ! Then whatever , got pangseh-ed and stuffs but luckily I've still got my dear YINGJIE with me aww . Saw the you-know-what and made her freaking higggh . Then collected her stuff and yeah , waited for lionel and douglas . They took so long and YJ had to leave for tuition . ): Ate with the two of them , well I didn't eat a shieet . Then went home and stuffs . Omg fine yeah , I didn't really study today oh what the hell was I doing ! I NEED MOTIVATION AH DUDE !

PS/ to you-know-who , I really don't like how idiotic you can portray yourself . I guess you need a big mirror somehow .

PS// to tutor , I think you're getting senile , remember to do what you're supposed to do first .

PS/// to yingjie , I love you , well I mean it .

PS//// to you-know-who , I like you .

Dance ;

"Technical perfection is insufficient. It is an orphan without the true soul of a dancer." -Sylvie Guillium

Oh well , people said I don't look like a dancer , my dancing ain't good and stuffs . It used to affect me a lot , as a dancer , every move is elegance , it's the power to conquer , but seems like I lack of all of these . However , it seems like I've just what it takes . Confidence is the key , and I lack of this . Now I've found it back , believing in myself , the elegance I bring out , the power to conquer the stage , this is just what it is to be a dancer , the true soul of a dancer . I don't exactly bother about how you look at me , judging me with my dance and let me ask you a simple question , do you know what is dance ? I may not be the best dancer , but that isn't a point for you to judge . I merely portray the beauty in me , the side that nobody knew , the side of a dancer you all thought couldn't make it . I won't say a thing , but I'll persevere and dance till you shut up .

GE.SG ;

Picture perfect memories , scattered all around the floor .

Well maybe I've got nothing more to say . It's like how you don't need me now , I don't need you as well . I won't rely on someone that I can't trust . Hmph well , stayed up late for the elections results last night . Had lots of mixed feelings and yeah . I'm pretty disappointed that Nicole Seah lost but it's understandable as her 'opponent' is GCT . Next is that WP won Aljunied , I'm so happy for them , but sadly we've lost Geroge Yeo , he was just a great Minister ! Well and anyway , I'm not saying that PAP isn't good , but like Nicole said " there should be more check and balances in the Parliament " . Well , the General Elections are now over . I'm feeling so moody , well maybe when mummy's back I'll cheer up as it's mother's day ! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY ! In addition , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOEY ! Omg my bestie since primary 1 and I really love her !

Boy bestfriend ;

'I want a boy best friend who will call me beautiful, and like my photos on facebook, commenting them saying things such as the fact he’s proud to have me as a bestfriend. One that I can call up, crying about other boys, and him saying he’ll beat the shit out of them for me. A boy bestfriend who will drive me around like he’s my big brother, and kiss me on my cheek/forehead when he knows I’m upset. One who becomes friends with my boyfriend and one who calls me up to see what I’m doing. I want a boy best friend who will tell me when I’m wrong, and force me into fixing things and apologizing because he knows that it will make things better for me. I just want a perfect boy best friend, who will love me and protect me from all the other boys.'

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Oh well , I don't know how things are going . It's just not within my control I guess , it just feels a little weird and yeah . I think all I can do is just wait , maybe something might happen . I'm feeling just so tired , so tired of doing anything , so tired of thinking , so tired of being alone .